Wisdom

*sigh* ....its an awful/beautiful life.
so don’t really know why this has been on my heart lately, among many other things, but I feel that God has just been really wanting me to share a few things.
STOP! just really stop right now, and think about what you have been doing lately, where it has led you, and what you have accomplished out of it...seriously.Take this time to just rethink. anything?
"Just be still and know that I am God", simple advice, yet deep down it means so much more. Man, when i really just stop to think, it blows my mind. And, i had the privilage of doing that this past week. You know, its a ritual we get in, so easily...this thing called life. And we think we are doing good, everythings going fine, maybe we are reading our word daily, and spending time in his presence, and maybe we are just doing everything perfect! Good! Good for you! But, do you see a result out of it? Are you being convicted, or just feeling an urge to change things in your life that are hindering you? That spiritual PUSH from God?
Or....just living each day, to be able to check off your chore list at the end? Are others benefiting from it?
I love it, when Pastor Matt says, Stop! just stop, right now, and really pray, or really think....etc. That to me, is a yearning heart, a pure heart, a heart after Gods own ways. Sometimes, we need to just be knocked off our feet! to hear the truth, and stop and evaluate ourselves. No ones perfect, don’t get me wrong. But, if you aren’t feeling the conviction, the urge to speak up when you feel God speaking to your heart about something,and if you don’t see a change in your life...then it is time to become less, be knocked down again, and reconsider his word, his ways. What am i doing wrong? Sometimes God does this, so that we can become humbled again, we can be more submissive to him, to what hes trying to tell us. Because, sometimes it takes more than one time, and experience. It does for me! So, to wrap this up, I have just been really meditating on his word lately, and a few weeks ago I was reading Job. You know the guy who had it all, and was submissive to God his whole life, until one day God was challenged by the devil himself, to see is he would always be humbled to God, even if everything and some were stripped from him.And even though, he went through some unthinkable times, even doubting at others, he stayed true. A man after Gods own heart. And these few verses just really spoke volumes to me, about the wisdom God can give us, when we are true to his ways, and have a humble heart.Most people just read a few chapters, and then stop, but if you really take time to read the whole book, you really get the feeling of what he went through, the knowledge. I think we all should yearn to have a heart like this.
Job 27:2-12 " As surely as God lives, who has deniedme justic, the almighty, who has made me taste bitterness of soul, as long as I have life within me, the breath of God in my nostrils, my lips will not speak wickedness, and my tongue will utter no deceit.I will never admit you are in the right; till I die, I will not deny my integrity.I will maintian my righteousness and never let go of it; my conscience will not reproach ma as long as I live." 7. " May my enemies be like the wicked, my adversaries like the unjust! For what hope has the Godless when he is cut off, when God takes away his life? Does God listen to his cry when distress comes upon him? Will he find delight in the almighty? Will he call up on God At ALL times?" 11 "I will teach you about the power of God; the ways of the almighty I will not conceal. You have seen this meaningless talk?"
great hugh? it gets better!
eventually his "friends" stop trying to give him advice if you read Job you know what im talking about....but anywho this verse really jumped out at me when i read it.
Job 32:8-9 " But it is the spirit in a man, the breath of the almighty, that gives him understanding. It is not only the old who are wise, not only the aged who understand what is right."
33:3 "My words come from an upright heart; my lips sincerely speak what i know."
so, go out there and be an evangelist or not...the choic is yours. Your life is what you make of it, and ultimately determines where you end up at the end.
God, make our hearts those of servants. Pure and holy, willing and ready to go wherever you want us to. Use me, in whatever way you planned and help me to stay humbled, to carry it out. Keep that passion in my heart, and most of all to just be real with you, and myself. Knock me down, keep my humbled. Aware of your perfectness, and just a girl after your own heart.
Remember, God would have it no other way then for you to just speak out of your heart to him, not this holy roller crap. He loves to hear you, and longs to have that intimate relationship with you!
thanks....thank you God!