Here you are

"Is it so bad then to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood..." Self-Reliance from Ralph Waldo Emerson.
MMmm so I guess I’m just a little down right now. But, it’s a funny thing because out of all of this I feel sort of a peace, one that is reasuring, maybe not knowing what’s in store, or where it will lead me, but a peace if you will. A few weeks ago Pastor Rocky was talking about life’s struggles and how yes there are low valleys and high mountains in life, but the important thing is that we recognize that through those hard times in our life God is shaping us into what he wants us to be. But what if your whole life feels as if it’s just one big valley? And you wait for the next time you are going to fall on your face, knowing that it will happen, but expecting it. That’s not how it’s suppost to be! Idk, ever spike that catches your wheels, and you think you’ve hit rock bottom, but later to learn through experience you haven’t. You can’t change someone, but you can be your own person, whom loves those closest to who, who have hurt you the most, but who have the most love for you too.
It’s so much harder next time around, to pick yourself up. Yeah we’re all human, we say things we don’t mean.But yet, here we are. Here we are. Uggg, it’s so waring.
I’ve fallin’ on my face plenty of time, more than I’ve liked to. But, this time around I felt such a stronger urge to not surrender the red flag like I so want sometimes. To be that Ironclad ship on faltering waves, that can atleast have the thought of the remedy during natures fierce warrior.
It would be so easy to give up, and yes I’ve had that thought...but then I would just shine light on the enemys plans. (And, I’m just way too stubborn) If anything I’ve gained through lifes experiences at my meek age of 17, is strength. Strength to push forward when all odds are against you, when in the worlds perspective you shouldn’t, a strength that grows during every trial. One that I hope one day would touch multitudes of people, and show them too that even is you must hit rock bottom there’s no way but up from here. And whoever’s reading this know that those words are true, even when it doesn’t feel like it.
Know I don’t understand why I go through certain things in my life, and what’s to come, but I do know that I can be a witness to others through what I’ve gone through, and hopefully one day I can be at peace with it, but until then just keep pressing on.
A burden that enables me to surrender all the more, because when you stand on the brink, what’s to lose?
"...So we lift up our voices, we open our hands, to cling to the love that we can’t understand..." Remedy by David Crowder Band.